Just… so confused right now.
I need tea. And a walk. And to mull this over.
I probably won’t be able to clearly tell what happened for a while.
In short, I just spent three days meticulously preparing to do something big (foolish? courageous?) - only to realize, when the moment came, that I suddenly didn’t want to, because it didn’t feel right.
What’s the matter with me? Can I even trust my feelings anymore?
Am I that fickle, that my feelings about someone can change in a snap?